Laura, can't you give me some time, I got to give myself one more chance. To be the man that I know I am.

it is epically cloudy and windy as all get out today, this weather just screams great lakes and the end of winter. i am a total lake enthusiast. i cant imagine not growing up near one. my memories are full of catching frogs and turtles just to make a new friend for the day, and then being taught to throw them back to the wild because they will be happier there, and not eating the baby fishies who never had a chance. lake culture is really cool that way, lakes have such an obvious and yet complex ecosystem that it really is a good teacher in respecting nature. you cant look at lake michigan during sunrise or sunset and not fall in love with the lake. and i know that sounds like the corniest thing in the entire world, and im still not afraid to say it because it's an undeniable truth. i love my cities and sprawling metropolis wasteland that i have forced myself to think of as beautiful, but i will always need to be able to escape from that. today my city looked beautiful though, even shrouded in clouds.  i had the rare opportunity to walk around during a weekday today. which is great if you ever get to do that, i saw some punk teenagers hanging out outside my local coffee place and a mom pushing her kids in a two seater stroller that looked right out of the 80's. i saw corporate asshole looking busy and i saw hip kids trying to look poor smoking nice cigarettes and poor kids looking hip sharing cigarettes. i saw a bum, a lot of bank security and cop trying to be sneaky, i saw trash swirling in the wind outside a fancy resteraunt. i want to remember it that way always. im waking up earlier again, im sitting outside more, im positive.